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Woman: All knowing, yet addicted to playing victim..

Ive been attempting to get to the root of why there’s such an emtional disconnect between myself & women vs. that of well… unison in terms of the male species and it has finally dawned on me.. my ex was completely right when he said men were degenerate versions of women. I couldnt wrap my mind around it at the time. To be honest, i was actually offended because that was MY sun he was talking about, but all in all like the Pisces he is, he was right.

I see the heterosexual male as something similar to our special needs population here in the west. For whatever reason, the androgynous creator sought out to create both physical manifestations of its self. One being woman, the other being man & group of beings who would have all the remnants of everything above, below & in between. Gatekeepers..

Pause, im not one to half-ass anything i write but im in a space where im no longer interested in intellectualism. Im not willing to explain my stance, when it just is. I dont want to convert you, the reader or save the planet. And to be frank, this whole blog is redundant but for the sake of argument, let me get to the point.

UnPause: Introspection has brought me to the understanding that women only play victim to “patriarchy/misogyny” because if they accepted that they’re both the creator & destroyer of ignorance then change starts with her. Not only that, she would have to admit her perfect creation, man-kind, isnt quite as perfect as she thought into existence. She is a jealous, bipolar, ego driven, hypersexual, fear based god & to go against her will, is blasphemy punishibale by cyber death. Ive witnessed women ruin entire careers, reputations, blogs etc all because one dared to defy her will by challenging her ideals. When fact of the matter is, everything begins & ends with her. This is why the child is first housed within her womb. Thats the first earth, first house, first crib, first meal, last breath. And its also where death occurs first. She is the alpha, & the omega. She is/was the first & will be the last of creation, but we’ll never see progress in this realm again, until she accepts her role in being the predatory savage she was created to be. What we are witnessing in today’s heterosexual male are the absolute recessive parts of Gods subconsious playing out in our everyday lives & for the first time she’s seeing herself and good lord is she hideous.. Those parts of her MUST be eradicated but of course she has to accept her place in creating this clusterfuck, first.. she leads, he’ll follow, but lets not put the cart before the horse just yet..

The heterosexual male never stood a chance at being her counterpart.. her equal. He was set up for failure the day we decided to put his genitals on the outside, leading his body before his head/heart. Then here we are, 2017, projecting our disappointment in him for not living up to our impossible standards he was never going to be able to attain to begin with & deep down, he knows he’s sub-par. He tries his hardest to please us but as god, her appetite can never be satisfied. To admit this, her imperfection is to admit defeat. Is to admit thats she’s human & quite possibly no higher than He afterall.

 

So whats the point? Im not sure.. perhaps we were just bored & wanted to play with ourselves via cosmic masturbation, and figured hey lets pretend we’re the weaker sex & fondle man’s emotions until they destroy each other to the point they’ll have no choice but to submit to our will. Only to realize, they would destroy the planet in the process.  Then again, this is the all-knowing god we’re talking about so instead of admitting she’s wrong & fixing it for divine peace, lets just destroy everything that has breath, that has potential for greatness then they’ll beg for a reset, & still get to be the savior all over again.

 

Far-fetched? Perhaps. but because god works in mysterious ways we shouldnt question her in/abilities to make sound, logical non-reactionary judgments or expect her to do so or suffer the wrath of her consequences. She’ll flood the earth, burn it to ash, or become so jealous of our unity she’ll cause Pangaea to shift..

 

Point: As a gatekeeper, I was born neutral towards woman, while harboring 100% compassion towards man. (Ive had to learn how to be neutral towards men but thats another blog) Woman refuses to hold herself accountable for allowing this “mess” a safe space inside her womb then why should he bother cleaning up? Protecting HER house she so proudly boasts belings solely to her? (rhetorical)

And For this fact alone, I cant be mad at man for how he acts. For being “predatory,” when it is us who created him to be that in the first place. He’s just stunting like his mama, thats all. I find no fault in Him for that. He was already forgiven for his sins once i accepted him into my womb. So, here’s to man-kind.. the degenerate special needs version of myself. You are now free to do you, with or without me/us.. Free will brother.. Do with it, what thou whilst. Thanks for reading.

The Eulogy: Here lies the Ni*ga Man & those that enable him… Amen.

Disclaimer: Self-Preservation is Law. In order to preserve the self, I had to symbolically kill the “nigga man apologist” within. He’s been laid up on my proverbial couch, eating all my kids cereal, using up all the high speed data, making other nigga-men moor “sovereign” off MY dime 7years too long now. My 11year sun old is now 18. Gone off to college doing something with his life while you, the nigga-man, sell dreams to other women behind my back because you intuitively feel when a FEMALE is up to something… After all this time, NOW you feel me huh? What am I up too you ask? Hmph…

Call Tyrone

 

Dear Black Man, (not to be confused with the nigga-man above)

 

I know you don’t know me, but ive heard a lot about you. Read stories about your type. Dreamed of what its like to have you come home to me, the children, the dog, our home, after running successful businesses a couple days a week, but ive been wondering why don’t you see me? And I figured it out today. See a black MAN isn’t attracted to little girls, Be it in females under 18 OR over 25, only the “nigga-minded male,” is attracted to “little girls.”  And for the last 20years, regardless of the age/wage gap, this is the only type of “man” that seems to approach me. I mean, it makes sense because Continue reading The Eulogy: Here lies the Ni*ga Man & those that enable him… Amen.

Dear Angry black woman, Im tired of yall… I mean, Us.

 

Been spending time with the maternal grandmother in Texas just as I did as a youth. True enough i’m here on business but on a personal  note, this is turning into one big ass case study of self… Let me explain.

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“Fourth of July weekend, 2016 here I am 4 days away from completing truck driver school #somewhereintexas and of course, being the perfectionist I Am, I strain my clutching knee. As divine timing and “Gawd’s favor” would have it, it’s a 3-day weekend. So im like cool!! Im going home to Grandma’s house so she can love on me, wrap my knee, give me some GOOD pain meds, FILL MY BELLY (yes, lordt) you know, nurture me, so ill be back in tip top shape  just in time for class come Tuesday morning!!! #anticipation

 

Yay grandma 

 

140+ miles later I arrive at Grandma’s house… Limping from that hard-body ’95 Nissan truck (no hammers) to the front door, 3 trips to be exact in 103 degree TEXAS heat, mind you.. Open the door, cool crisp central air blasts me in the face. I inhale deeply.. I exhale a sigh of relief.. Until my eyes connect with my makeshift bed er umm couch. **the let down** Mind you ive already briefed Granny on the prior week’s challenges ya know the usual male chauvinistic, sexist, misogynist culture that is the trucking/automotive industry to which im no stranger to. Ive been working in said industry since 2006 so trust me, my skin is thick. However, this situation differs as ive never lived amongst those I worked with. College dorm sleeping, classroom style and OMG has it been an eye opener… Now week one of this 3week Class A intensive was the “welcoming” while week 2 was the initiation. I wont go into specifics but lets just say I would be just fine if I never hear the words “Yall females are taking all of OUR jobs” again in my life. See what that particular guy didn’t understand is that I too am a misogynist, CORRECTION: An internalized misogynist (thanks feminist chick.. there’s the bright side to your shady hearted antics) and didn’t fully comprehend why until I came “home” for the weekend. See, last week I kept trying to avoid this guy but he kept parking near me. Just had to say SOMETHING to me ya know? Just a pestilent little shit I couldn’t get away from. Then, it comes to me, like an epiphany…. He is my reflection!!! My own got damned shadow-self .

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According to Wikipedia Shadow-Self means: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)  Now when I say shadow-self I mean those parts of us that continue rearing its ugly head no matter how many yoga challenges we participate in, how many yoni steams or digestive system detoxes we perform, no matter how much chamomile tea and nag champa incense we burn, that darkside, that shadow just keeps on nagging at your inner peace like that one neighbor we ALL know who will STILL be bussin cannon-style fireworks randomly between the hours of 10:57p.m and 3:13am for the next 2-3 weeks… So, I had 2 choices. Either make friends with this bully, get to the root of why he doesn’t like women imposing on “his” territory, show him im different, you know cater to his egoic persona while stroking my own OR curse this dude (who is also a projection of myself, follow me now) out so bad he never blinks my away again let alone makes another snide remark.. OUTCOME: I did both not only did I make friends with my darkside i physically cursed him smooth out. Banished his ass like a bad spirit who cant accept its no longer in this physical realm!!!! Ghostbuster style… And man did it feel good!!! All that shy, passive shit flew right out the door. I had taken my last blow from misogyny.. or so I thought. Continue reading Dear Angry black woman, Im tired of yall… I mean, Us.