Category Archives: Healing

Dear elder males, you failed.

 

TRIGGER WARNING!!!!

If there is a paedophile over the age of 25, still living, still breathing, living good in this “free world” & you, as their parent, uncle, grandpa “male elder” etc are fully aware of their transgressions against children… YOU are a failure. As the protector of the family, YOU were to eliminate ALL threats at the first sign of imbalance.. Especially when your sister/cousin/niece decided she was only going to attract loser men, incapable of actively consitent fatherhood, to reproduce with thus placing said burden on YOUR shoulders. You’re a failure & so is she!

Yes, I’m aware we live in the “sexual liberation” age, but that shit is null & void when children are being born into YOUR living second pubescent life at 35..

When that child starts acting out, running away, being “fass/manish” in school & everywhere, performing UNSPEAKABLE acts on other children, instead of getting them help… instead of intervening with concern, finding out WHO turned them into this child preying entity, you beat them. Not because you want to correct the behavior. it’s because YOU knew something was wrong. YOU knew you were failing somewhere down/up the line and now “outsiders” know your little charade is up. You defied god/intuition & your child.. OUR communities are paying the ultimate price. Continue reading Dear elder males, you failed.

Gross Negligence: Heart Chakra & the 7 stages of grief..

Throughout this blog, I’ve spoken strictly from the neglected root chakra perspective via childhood sexual trauma. As i work my way up the “self- correcting” ladder that is the chakra system, reprogramming generational effects of  being born in the “first world.” As unsettling as it is, i have to admit that it’s become more evident, that we’re being attacked on all fronts.. simultaneously at the heart & root level.. There’s no reaching the crown without a fully activated heart.. there’s no reaching the heart when the foundation is cracked.. ironically the heart is the only organ standing at the gates that unites the upper 3 & lower 3 chakras. When an organism sees no benefit in its Being FULLY functional, that vital organ no longer has a purpose to fuel said organisms continued survival.

The Map of the Human Heart
The Map of the Human Heart

The heart is such a beautifully chaotic organ. On the surface all we see is the rhythmic pulsating action of said organ’s synchronized chaos involuntarily fighting for a living, breathing [both rebellious ungrateful, by society’s design] organism who refuses to even acknowledge its purposeful existence.

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but before I get too deep, here’s a few meme’s depicting the collective mentality of a population under the influence of westernized “first world” culture.

 

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Self Pity, Depression.. Shock.. Loss.

 

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Self Defense.. fight, flight or freeze.

 

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Groupthink, gang mentality influenced & backed by entertainment/music industry.

And in true westernized society fashion, I present to you… Supplementation.

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Denial, Overworking/Over-extending ourselves into exhaustion… “Work/grind-a-holics” Independent/strong black women.. Facades.

 

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Self Destruction/Sabotage & Escapism,
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More Denial & Escapism..

Acceptance/Introspection.

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Acceptance, Introspection.. Growth.

 

It’s my observation that one has to experience all 7 stages of grief to activate all 7 chakras.. Yes, some stages repeat but that’s only because one hasnt mastered the lesson. Of course this is from a rudimentary perspective as I Am still coming into this Knowing of self. So with that being said, eventually I’ll go more in depth regarding each stage but im going to stop here for now.  Thanks for reading.

 

Love aint lust, ladies…

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Love & Lust feel nothing alike… I mean absolutely nothing alike. And I’m trying to decide from whose perspective shall I speak Or to whom the subject matter should be geared towards, but fellas try being direct with these females because they don’t really comprehend “nice no’s.” Before i dive into it, LADIES: let me give you a quick tip on how to discern whether it’s lust controlling him or not…

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Fellas, back to yall.. They’re having trouble wrapping they’re mind around the services you’re providing as a warm body, fire head game &/or between consistent schlong stamina. Your man meat unlocks years of trauma.. I’m talking generational trauma but isn’t it funny how once the seed is spilled you snap back to reality out of that trance like state? While she head over heels in love sex high off adrenaline & oxytocin, on the other hand is up washing your dishes.. folding your clothes, liking All your damn profile pics and all you were looking for was a little release therapy…

Now you got 2 options..

1) Cut her off. Cold turkey [or at least attempt to]
2) Drag it out because she looks at least halfway decent, mediocre head, phenomenal body, plus she lets you [insert fetish here] til “she” MAKES you snap or you put a baby in her.

Ahh fuq it!!! Do what thou whilst.. Make the most of this human experience.. Pick your poison. But remember I told you.. Love feels nothing like lust. Thanks for reading.

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Sexual Abuse Survivor Behavior: Dark Yogi Views


Dark Yogi Views: Sexual Abuse Survivor Behavior…

People see erratic sexual behavior as “bad” or negative.. but from my perspective it’s just misdirected stagnant root chakra healing energy..

I’ve met countless “knock-knee” women with the touch of an angel, who feel their soul purpose is to be the sacrificial lamb of intimacy deprived males & females.. If only they/we knew.

**Knock Knee Woman: During childhood, As a defense mechanism to protect your genitalia from fondling, Your legs turned inward as opposed to remaining bow-legged & open** (Jewel Pookrum or Francis Cress Welsing [Ase’] said this sometime ago) Thus shutting down your security in being feminine..

Too many males walking around phallus on full salute towards any & everything walking.. And for why? For what? Because they ALL need healing.. WE all need healing and it’s in the touch.. the tone of voice.. #melodic the sway of the hips.. #waves the “swag” or rhythm in his step.. #rhythmAndBlues

Due to our ignorance & generational rug-sweeping.. They have mastered the art of manipulating said Power, for THEIR greater good.. Black woman, black man take y/our power back.. ✊

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Thanks for reading. #theDragonflyAffect #darkYogi ✌

Dark Love…

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Most beautiful Boogeyman..

Til you play in the shadows of your mind, love, you’ll never be free.. So when you’re ready, I challenge you to Come die with me.. For in death, love has no expiration date.. In my hearts home, i offer you everlasting death/life.. But only when YOU are ready.. til then, Look for me in the shadows of your mind. Love YOU there, first.. So The rest can align..

Signed- Your favorite nightmare 👿😇 #balance #darkYogi #boogeyman #theDragonflyAffect #undertakeYah

34hrs in Purgatory… A “short-short” story.

 

 

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“Saint vs. Sinner.. A short [love/fear] story.”

Dear Vegas, i just think its funny how….

 

You look “better”when the lights are off.. And I now understand why i hate it here. At night you people illuminate the shadows with Christmas lights as if it’s all “fun & games.” Scantily clad, smiling women with crying eyes and painted faces, at every entrance.. Excess, greed & debauchery dwell here and It is not that I’m against any of this. I just… This place is a physical manifestation of my OWN mind. And it’s changing.. Everyday the old mind, is changing.. but this “city of sins” is a stark reminder of where I’ve been, where people are, and where others can only DREAM of visiting… my mind. I see the best & worst parts of it here… But it’s daytime, I have no CHOICE but to see you/me for the predatory beast you/we are… #darkYogi #firstWorld in the #thirdWorld #theDragonflyAffect

Redbone Fetish Aside: “Black Love & loyalty” sure does hurt..

I had to put my little red-bone fetish aside for this one… Let’s get right to it.

You people praising ‪#‎Korryn‬ should be on suicide watch… Living vicariously through someone who all but BLATANTLY told police that they were going to HAVE TO KILL HER “tuh-day,” not tomorrow, but “tuh-day.” The ‘folks’ stood there pleading with her, (a good 5-7minutes longer than #SandraBland extra rude self) NOT to do this, and the fact that she would rather die than comply speaks volumes… but I digress

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Continue reading Redbone Fetish Aside: “Black Love & loyalty” sure does hurt..

Is you conscious or is you woke? I’m just asking…

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Dear Dragonfly, Why don’t YOU focus on sexual abuse awareness and prevention the way YOU used too when you first started blogging?! Well, to be quite honest, It was draining. I started losing myself in other folks neglect of their children. I started to try and “save” folks when its not MY job.. I had to come to a place of accepting that their battle is not MINE.. Yes, we have similar scars, similar weaponry.. enemy had the same skin color, but the “battle?” Nah, its their own.. and vice versa.. Shit I’m just here to assist by being an example, through the documentation of my OWN journey back to wholeness. ‪#‎selfPreservation #saviorComplex ‬

So my question to YOU, dear innocent bystander, is this…

Why don’t YOU speak on sexual abuse, the way you talk about these supreme ass white folks that wont GIVE YOU NO JOB, huh? Why don’t YOU share facts/memes about sexual abuse of black boys and girls the way you share footage of blacks being gunned down by scary ass SUPREME white folks…the way YOU share photos of our ancestors being hung from trees.. the way YOU talk about gay agendas.. the way you talk about aint no good men/women.. the way YOU talk about sports.. the way YOU drag religious folks… I’m just asking…

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Now, we don’t ALL know somebody that’s been hung from a tree, killed, or denied a job from some “supreme” entity…. but according to the stats http://newsone.com/1680915/half-of-black-girls-sexually-assaulted/ 60% black females (and males, from the perspective of duality, as above so below, as within so without) will have been sexually assaulted by the age of 18… 60% of little black girls and 60% little black boys (separately but equally) have ALREADY been sexually abused/assaulted by their 18th birthday… SIX OUT OF TEN!!! 60/100 Black children… and in majority of these cases, guess what?? The perpetrator is another BLACK FEMALE OR BLACK MALE.. And 9/10, they are family &/or family acquaintance i.e someone the child’s family knows…From these statistics alone, you either ARE either 6/10 OR you’ve loved someone who’s apart of the 60%.. #introspection

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Hmph, so why don’t i spread the gospel about prevention and AWARENESS regarding sexual abuse in the black community the way I “used too” anymore? Oh yall are most definitely aware, matter of fact you’ve BEEN aware for generations, actually.. Yall just don’t [wanna] hear these babies when they’re telling you the truth tho. Too busy stuntin on your rivals just to show and prove you got somebody that comes home to you EVERY night. Knowing damn well they not coming home for you… They’re coming “home” because you’re knowingly, willingly sacrificing your own babies just to say you got somebody… Yea, I see you. ‪#‎pickYourBattles‬ ‪#‎scapegoatSociety‬ ‪#‎AsAboveSoBelow‬ ‪#‎rugSweepers‬ ‪#‎theDragonflyAffect‬

Is you conscious or is you awake? I’m just asking… ‪#‎enemyWithinOrWithout‬ ‪#‎stopDeflecting

 

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Aint enough bleach in the world that can wash THIS amount of blood off your generational hands my “consciously aware” community.. Might as well face yourselves and bathe in it… There’s no “we before EYE” on this journey to recovery. The sooner you comprehend this the better. Self preservation is the ONLY law. Save yourselves first, or drown with the rest of the ship. #noIceberg With peace & chaos, Thank you for reading. –T. D Hooks

The Eulogy: Here lies the Ni*ga Man & those that enable him… Amen.

Disclaimer: Self-Preservation is Law. In order to preserve the self, I had to symbolically kill the “nigga man apologist” within. He’s been laid up on my proverbial couch, eating all my kids cereal, using up all the high speed data, making other nigga-men moor “sovereign” off MY dime 7years too long now. My 11year sun old is now 18. Gone off to college doing something with his life while you, the nigga-man, sell dreams to other women behind my back because you intuitively feel when a FEMALE is up to something… After all this time, NOW you feel me huh? What am I up too you ask? Hmph…

Call Tyrone

 

Dear Black Man, (not to be confused with the nigga-man above)

 

I know you don’t know me, but ive heard a lot about you. Read stories about your type. Dreamed of what its like to have you come home to me, the children, the dog, our home, after running successful businesses a couple days a week, but ive been wondering why don’t you see me? And I figured it out today. See a black MAN isn’t attracted to little girls, Be it in females under 18 OR over 25, only the “nigga-minded male,” is attracted to “little girls.”  And for the last 20years, regardless of the age/wage gap, this is the only type of “man” that seems to approach me. I mean, it makes sense because Continue reading The Eulogy: Here lies the Ni*ga Man & those that enable him… Amen.

Dear Angry black woman, Im tired of yall… I mean, Us.

 

Been spending time with the maternal grandmother in Texas just as I did as a youth. True enough i’m here on business but on a personal  note, this is turning into one big ass case study of self… Let me explain.

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“Fourth of July weekend, 2016 here I am 4 days away from completing truck driver school #somewhereintexas and of course, being the perfectionist I Am, I strain my clutching knee. As divine timing and “Gawd’s favor” would have it, it’s a 3-day weekend. So im like cool!! Im going home to Grandma’s house so she can love on me, wrap my knee, give me some GOOD pain meds, FILL MY BELLY (yes, lordt) you know, nurture me, so ill be back in tip top shape  just in time for class come Tuesday morning!!! #anticipation

 

Yay grandma 

 

140+ miles later I arrive at Grandma’s house… Limping from that hard-body ’95 Nissan truck (no hammers) to the front door, 3 trips to be exact in 103 degree TEXAS heat, mind you.. Open the door, cool crisp central air blasts me in the face. I inhale deeply.. I exhale a sigh of relief.. Until my eyes connect with my makeshift bed er umm couch. **the let down** Mind you ive already briefed Granny on the prior week’s challenges ya know the usual male chauvinistic, sexist, misogynist culture that is the trucking/automotive industry to which im no stranger to. Ive been working in said industry since 2006 so trust me, my skin is thick. However, this situation differs as ive never lived amongst those I worked with. College dorm sleeping, classroom style and OMG has it been an eye opener… Now week one of this 3week Class A intensive was the “welcoming” while week 2 was the initiation. I wont go into specifics but lets just say I would be just fine if I never hear the words “Yall females are taking all of OUR jobs” again in my life. See what that particular guy didn’t understand is that I too am a misogynist, CORRECTION: An internalized misogynist (thanks feminist chick.. there’s the bright side to your shady hearted antics) and didn’t fully comprehend why until I came “home” for the weekend. See, last week I kept trying to avoid this guy but he kept parking near me. Just had to say SOMETHING to me ya know? Just a pestilent little shit I couldn’t get away from. Then, it comes to me, like an epiphany…. He is my reflection!!! My own got damned shadow-self .

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According to Wikipedia Shadow-Self means: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)  Now when I say shadow-self I mean those parts of us that continue rearing its ugly head no matter how many yoga challenges we participate in, how many yoni steams or digestive system detoxes we perform, no matter how much chamomile tea and nag champa incense we burn, that darkside, that shadow just keeps on nagging at your inner peace like that one neighbor we ALL know who will STILL be bussin cannon-style fireworks randomly between the hours of 10:57p.m and 3:13am for the next 2-3 weeks… So, I had 2 choices. Either make friends with this bully, get to the root of why he doesn’t like women imposing on “his” territory, show him im different, you know cater to his egoic persona while stroking my own OR curse this dude (who is also a projection of myself, follow me now) out so bad he never blinks my away again let alone makes another snide remark.. OUTCOME: I did both not only did I make friends with my darkside i physically cursed him smooth out. Banished his ass like a bad spirit who cant accept its no longer in this physical realm!!!! Ghostbuster style… And man did it feel good!!! All that shy, passive shit flew right out the door. I had taken my last blow from misogyny.. or so I thought. Continue reading Dear Angry black woman, Im tired of yall… I mean, Us.